grudge

Deep-seated and/or long-term animosity or ill will about something or someone, especially due to a past misdeed or mistreatment.

“to have/hold/bear a grudge against someone”

To be unwilling to give or allow (someone something).

To grumble, complain; to be dissatisfied.

To hold or harbour with malicious disposition or purpose; to cherish enviously.

To feel compunction or grief.