fluctuated

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verb
  1. 1

    To vary irregularly; to swing.

  2. 2

    To undulate.

  3. 3

    To be irresolute; to waver.

    โ€œI fluctuated between wishing he was back home and wishing I'd never met him.โ€

  4. 4

    To cause to vary irregularly.

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